Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus, just to take Him at His word…. The words of this old hymn are resonating in my heart today as I get four kids to clean up for an open house in an attempt to sell our home. What beautiful promises God has for us. One of the best is that when we trust him we have nothing to worry about.
I’ve been wrestling, again, with whether or not selling my home is the right decision. Our fairy-tale backyard, walking distance to two schools I’ve built amazing relationships with, and closeness to so many things, has made this a not-so-easy decision. But the new house has space this one lacks, a great open floor plan, and a fresh start. One child passionately doesn’t want to leave, another just as passionately does, and the other two could go either way.
But as I wrestled yet again last night with how to pray, I realized leaving it in God’s hands was the best course of action. If my home does not sell in the 90 days that the seller of the new one has given me, I will take that as God’s instruction to stay put, at least for now.
Oh the peace that settled on me with that decision. God has this all under control. It doesn’t matter that today it is raining—a buzz-kill for open houses. If God has determined this is the next step, all I need to do is my best and trust. He will send a buyer for whom this house is an answer to prayer. If it is not His timing or His best new house for us, He will help me make this one work better for my ever-growing kids.
As I began to find comfort in this surrender to God’s plan, my cousin in North Carolina posted on her Facebook page this morning Proverbs 21:30-31: “No human wisdom or understanding or plan can stand against the Lord. The horse is prepared for the day of battle, but the victory belongs to the Lord.” What sweet confirmation from far across the country.
So I will round up my little helpers and get this place shining. I will figure out someplace to take them in the rain for an hour and a half that doesn’t cost an arm and a leg, and I will leave it in God’s ever-worthy hands. He can be trusted for He is trustworthy. He knows the plans He has for us and in that knowledge there is peace.
I penned those words yesterday before the open house. Before a young couple spent 45 minutes oohing and aahing over my house. Before I got a glimpse of the possible in our quest to move.
There was a glimmer of hope. And yet, how quickly we fall back into old habits. How easy it is to listen to the whispers of worry on your shoulder right after declaring that God has this—I have nothing to fear!
The open house was Sunday and on Monday my realtor texted me that they wanted to come back—this time with their realtor. So I packed the kids and dog in the van and drove to the new house to measure windows and rooms and help them dream a little. This helped Kati get more excited. We drove by the girls’ new schools discovering what a short drive it really was.
When we returned home, Sonic slushies in hand, my realtor texted me that they love it, but were concerned about the price. My heart sank just a bit. I don’t have much wiggle room left. We’d already dropped the price and offered a carpet allowance. After closing costs, if I drop the price any more, I will only break even. That seemed like defeat somehow.
What will you do? How is this possible? Maybe this means you can’t move, came the whisper in my mind. And then I remembered my declaration of faith from only 36 hours before. Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus…. If the victory lies with God, then He will give me wisdom. He will provide for what I need. He will go with me.
So I will choose to trust that God is in the final victory—victory in staying or in going. He has a plan that will work in either house because He is God. When I choose to place my trust in Him, I can move into the unknown confident that He is already there. When I submit my plans to His greater perspective, I can relax and know I have handed control to Him. I will put this out of my mind and work on other things, trusting that the God of all creation cares about me and He will take care of even this.
Tis so sweet indeed.